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Soundtrack to my Life

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I've got some issues that nobody can see, and all of these emotions are pouring out of me...

Soundtrack to my Life, Kid Cudi. One of my favorite songs. Those two verses right there speak to me a lot. As you all know, I've been thinking long and hard about whether or not I wanna stay in this program. I'm tired of flip-flopping and trying to convince myself that this is what I want. That's just it; if I'm trying to convince myself of that, then it can't be. My friend is picking me up tomorrow.

On top of all the work, I'm just really stressed. People are on me about everything, I have almost no privacy, and I'm not even allowed out to go places. It sucks. I can't handle it.

My heart really wasn't in it, and I realized that the main reason I was in it, besides the drugs/alcohol, was because at first, I did like the other people. But that's not a good enough reason to commit myself to this. My plan: go to Holland, get a job, move in with this friend who's picking me up tomorrow, and then split rent. It'll take time, but now that I'm clean, I don't need to worry about being dropped and worry about being dirty. Win-win.

This is what I really want, and I know people at the mission, staff, programmers, are disappointed, but I gotta do me. If this isn't right for me, I'll figure something else out.


  1. Sam's Avatar
    lyrics 2 song in my username