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I'm Becoming a Monk

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...OK, not really.

BUT... I am leaving this site.

First off, hello nohomers' members. I am awake. I am at peace. Lemme explain what has happened.

As you all know, I live at a shelter now. Everyday we have chapel 2-3 times. Talking about Jesus and God. Touchy subjects for me, because as a kid I was pretty religious, but as I grew older, I didn't really know what to believe or think.

Then, at chapel, I listened to people talk about how shitty their lives' used to be, before they found and accepted Jesus and God into their lives. I always thought that was a load of bs. But their stories related to me so well. You know, being depressed, turning to alcohol and drugs to feel better. But, I don't want to be that person anymore. It's time to grow up and face life. I haven't touched weed or alcohol in a few days, and I don't plan on either again. See, weed makes you happy and feel good, but it's temporary; it's a false happiness. After it wears off, then what? You probably want more to feel happy still. That was me. But, now I know Jesus and God are watching over me.

Despite what your guys' personal preference is toward religion, just know that I am finally happy. I've accepted both into my life. I'm just happy this was Gods' plan for me, to end up at a shelter, and that I didn't resort to harder drugs or drinking more and more till I eventually died, or for me to continue living the same way I had been, only to grow up in my 30s/40s and realize I wasted so much of my life. Luckily, I realized this at age 20, so I've still got a lot of life in me.

For the first time in a long time, I'm genuinely happy. No weed is involved. Only Jesus and God. I firmly and strongly believe they are looking out for me. I shut them out, but now they're back in my life to stay.

I also realized what I want out of life; TV. Yes, this is more or less the same thing I've stated before, but not just stuff like Unleashed, which I've described on here; I want to make family programming. I am absolutely disgusted with the stuff I see on TV nowadays, on Nick, Disney Channel... that stuff just isn't good. I'm talking about those live-action sitcoms like Sam and Cat, Dog with a Blog... I don't know, I don't really watch much of either anymore. It literally makes me angry watching those. I want to make family programming that people can relate to. Real life problems, make it a comedy-drama and tackle issues such as alcoholism, drug abuse, parental divorce, death... and approach them realistically. Not many shows do that but I believe I can. The only way to fail is to not try.

Anyway, this is the end of my tenure on this site. I have no doubt I will someday return, but for now, I need to focus on things; get a job, make money, write... I'm not going to have much time for this site. I'm going to miss you guys. I don't know how you guys feel about religion and God and all that, but I hope you guys can be happy for me; in the past I've been called stupid for believing in God. Now if people think that I just don't care.

Goodbye, you guys. Keep on rockin'.
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  1. Robotics's Avatar
    If incorporating religion into your lifestyles gives you positive reinforcement, then go for it. I'm glad that you seem to have found a good turn-around and a boost of morale. Just keep at it and you'll be as good as ever.
  2. Ryan's Avatar
    Just don't become a dick and force your beliefs on everyone else and you'll be golden.
  3. pilcrow's Avatar
    Best of luck wherever you go.
  4. Startug's Avatar
    My jaw kinda dropped at this. It's a little ironic. I became a lot more happy with my life when I became an atheist. I really, really, don't know how it'll be, but I guess I wish you luck with your religious journey. I don't want it to bite you hard in the end though. I want you to improve your life as much as you can. I'm not asking you to leave religion or anything, but I'm honestly depressed that something like that is taking another good friend away from me. You've cheered me up during some bad times and I don't know how to repay you or most of the people on here. If religion does make you happy though and clean you up... then I guess I'll have to accept it and be happy that you'll be in a better place during life. Shit man, I'm seriously going to miss you. I don't want this to be the end of anything, but if that's the way it'll have to be, then that's that. I can only wish so much luck for you on your path to religion. Farewell, my friend. Shall we cross paths again, I'm always here with open arms. No homo.
    Updated 05-05-2014 at 06:13 PM by Startug (I sounded like Brian Griffin. :/)
  5. kupomog's Avatar
    Welp good luck. Religion is not my bag but whatever gets you going down the adult path. Your description of weed is pretty much what I think of religion having seen many, including my brother, go through drug rehab and therapy at the Salvation Army. I hope writing is the last thing you are focusing on though, because it's a long road ahead for YOU whether God/Jesus are watching or not. Keep your priorities in focus, because writing material to get on TV needs all the other important things taken care of first. Enjoy your religion if it makes you happy, but don't rely on it and realize that not everyone who is happy in life needed religion (or weed) at all. They worked hard to get where they are. And make amends with people, because I see you fighting with Darin and that's certainly the wrong path to take at this point. C U L8R
  6. Kid Moe's Avatar
    Good luck, man. It pains me to see you go, but life comes first. I wish you all the best on your accomplishing your goals.
  7. Insomnia's Avatar
    lol
  8. tyler's Avatar
    from one crutch to another. have fun being high on God.
  9. D'ohmer's Avatar
    Some of the comments here are disgusting. I know I've said this before, but this right here is honestly making me want to leave this site more than anything else I've seen on here before. I'm tempted to ask for a ban, but I'd miss some of the people I met.
  10. Startug's Avatar
    Quote Originally Posted by D'ohmer
    Some of the comments here are disgusting. I know I've said this before, but this right here is honestly making me want to leave this site more than anything else I've seen on here before. I'm tempted to ask for a ban, but I'd miss some of the people I met.
    Dude I think few on here would give a shit about you. Piss off or something.
  11. D'ohmer's Avatar
    [QUOTE=Startug;bt13142]Dude I think few on here would give a shit about you. Piss off or something.[/QUOTE]

    Does that make you feel better?
  12. Startug's Avatar
    Quote Originally Posted by D'ohmer
    Does that make you feel better?
    Kinda. I mean, you're someone who gets offended at the tiniest things. Trust me, we all love our buddy Joe, but you make an overreaction because we know religion is just a crutch.
  13. kupomog's Avatar
    D'ohmer, unless you are going to directly address people on what you have a problem with, don't turn this comment section into your own personal high-horse.

    Brandon is an adult now. Should he come back and have a problem with what people here are saying, he will address them the same way he addressed his friend in real life.
  14. D'ohmer's Avatar
    Alright, I'll address specific people.
    - @Insomnia show some respect
    - @Startug and @Kaos, read what Ryan said. You were both passive-aggressively forcing your views onto Brandon, especially you @Startug with your first comment, before you talked about how much you're going to miss him (which I do believe was genuine, which was nice at least, but it doesn't take away from the rancidness of what I know you were trying to say).
  15. tyler's Avatar
    haha my views. I don't have any view to spout, I've consciously distanced myself from religion personally. I just think it's toxic to cling to religion, which he seems to be doing. I encourage the guy's success in life, but "finding God" isn't going to improve everything altogether, even if he does exist, he'd probably want people do deal with their problems and overcome them on their own.

    do me a favor D'ohmer, and the next time you feel the need to assume my position or put words in my mouth, fucking don't.
  16. friendswithsalad's Avatar
    i think god is probably a better thing to cling onto for comfort than drugs or whatever but you gotta make sure you put effort in yourself too to overcome your issues, skylark. things won't just happen for you automatically. find good people, do good things and i wish you all the best!
  17. Startug's Avatar
    Quote Originally Posted by D'ohmer
    Alright, I'll address specific people.
    - @Insomnia show some respect
    - @Startug and @Kaos, read what Ryan said. You were both passive-aggressively forcing your views onto Brandon, especially you @Startug with your first comment, before you talked about how much you're going to miss him (which I do believe was genuine, which was nice at least, but it doesn't take away from the rancidness of what I know you were trying to say).
    Dude, shut up. We weren't at all forcing our views on Brandon. I don't know how you're getting that, but I tried my best not to sound like it. The least you can do is not start these dumb wars on comment pages. Alright?

    Quote Originally Posted by Kaos
    haha my views. I don't have any view to spout, I've consciously distanced myself from religion personally. I just think it's toxic to cling to religion, which he seems to be doing. I encourage the guy's success in life, but "finding God" isn't going to improve everything altogether, even if he does exist, he'd probably want people do deal with their problems and overcome them on their own.

    do me a favor D'ohmer, and the next time you feel the need to assume my position or put words in my mouth, fucking don't.
    In irony, Amen.
  18. BrokenBox's Avatar
    Bye Skylark. May you have good luck.
  19. Financial Panther's Avatar
    I'm don't believe those things, but I'm fine with those who do (Attending a Catholic school makes you used to this stuff). If this will help you get your life back on track, I don't have a problem with the path you're taking. I'm sorry I may have sounded like an uppity snob to you sometimes; I hope you can forgive me for that. Take care, and good luck in your future endeavors.
  20. pilcrow's Avatar
    D'ohmer arguments: Now in the blog section!

    Quote Originally Posted by D'ohmer
    Some of the comments here are disgusting. I know I've said this before, but this right here is honestly making me want to leave this site more than anything else I've seen on here before. I'm tempted to ask for a ban, but I'd miss some of the people I met.
    I think most of the people here are doing it in good humor. The Internet's that kind of place where words shouldn't be taken as seriously.
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