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WARNING: This blog post contains extreme obsession. Read at your own risk.

OK, so I, like, have this major crush on an American Idol contestant from last season named Katie Stevens. She's cute, pretty, has a great personality, is so talented, is great with her fans. ect. (I could go on forever, lol). Anyway, let me give you a discription of her journey on American Idol.

Her audition was great and it was one of the few that I remembered. I thought it was sweet how she took care of her grandmother with Alzheimer's. Throughout the next rounds in Hollywood, I found myself liking her and rooting for her, but my crush didn't really develop at that point. Next were the semifinals, which were a bit rough for her. Her performances weren't that great, but I was still grateful that she survived the semifinals and made it to the finals. She greatly improved. I think my crush really hit during the week of the top 11 as I found myself perspiring when she was on. I was really rooting for her to make it to the top 10 so she could go on tour and she did. The next few weeks were of bliss as I really found my obsession of her developing. She was having many great performances, but I was getting worried every results night that it would be her time to go. I wasn't really surprised to see her go home when she did, but I was still devastated. I felt so bad for her.

What you guys have to understand is that this is a secret crush and no one knows about this, besides all of you now. Because of this, I didn't vote for her when she was on the show. I didn't want my parents to accidentally find out somehow and it took me awhile to accept all of this. This made me feel even worse for her when she got out. I know this is not true, but I felt like I could have saved her with just some votes. I still feel bad about this to this day and wonder if I really have the right to be a fan.

Anyway, it's time to brighten this up because that's not the main focus of this blog post. This is supposed to be a positive blog. We got tickets to the Idol tour and I was so excited. It was going to be amazing, I knew, to see her perform live in person. Anyway, I was so excited for the concert and when the day finally came, it was AMAZING! The other Idols did a great job too, but seeing Katie perform two great songs very well in person was, honestly, one of the high points of my life. Our up close seats only made it better. I think I did manage to atch a few awkward staring moments with her, even though I was too shy to wave. I was on cloud 9.

Before the concert, her fate seemed a little uncertain to me. Now, however, after seeing her live, I have a great feeling that she will do great. She is a true star and is just what is popular these days (in a good way). She was a million times better than she was on the show and showed her true potential. She is also currently on a great track. In addition to all this exposure Idol and the tour have given her, she has been working with some writers to write music, which, hopefully, will lead her into getting signed and a great career. I think it will.

While this crush that started back in March is in good standing, it's still a secret, despite me spilling this all out in this blog post. I want to be able to tell people about this, but I think it would be very awkward. I feel that this is a good place to start.

Aww, this feels so much better to have gotten this out. Hopefully, I will be able to face my ultimate fears and get this out to people I know in real life. I want to see her again and I know that I will have to tell other people if I want to do so, so that's a good incentive.

Thank you for reading.