http://www.nohomers.net/blog.php?27138-Jesse-Pinkman en Sun, 19 May 2013 12:43:14 GMT vBulletin 780 http://www.nohomers.net/digitalvb/vbfour/misc/rss.jpg http://www.nohomers.net/blog.php?27138-Jesse-Pinkman http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6467-False-Hope Tue, 12 Mar 2013 16:34:32 GMT This feeling sucks.

As you guys know I like a girl that used to be a utility worker like me. "Cute Girl" is what I call her on here. I don't know much about her because she never really talked. She was real quiet. I never really talked to her, mostly because I'm relatively shy around girls and because she was already in a relationship so anything I said could be misconstrued.

Anyway, I have a problem; whenever I get a friend request on Facebook I always somehow convince myself it's her. "Oh, she sent me one because we have so many mutual friends!" Then I click on the friend request and it's always somebody else. I mean, it shouldn't be surprising; why would someone I worked with who barely talked to me ever wanna be friends on Facebook? But it sucks each and every time.

I've thought about sending her a request but I doubt she would accept it for that reason, we barely know each other and we barely talk. It sucks. I would love to know more about Cute Girl, but I'll probably never get the chance. And that false hope freaking sucks. It's not like I get friend requests often. But recently every single one I've managed, for a few seconds, to convince myself it's from her. It sucks.

What are examples of false hope you guys can share ]]> Jesse Pinkman http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6467-False-Hope http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6444-Motivation Sun, 03 Mar 2013 16:34:22 GMT What in this world motivates you? And how often do you need motivation?

I need motivation to do pretty much anything. Music helps. If I was in school and needed help on something but didn't want to go up and help, I would play a song or two and get up.

A lot of the time if I'm working, and I know I am late for my break or lunch or whatever, I go inside and ask, but usually I need to play a part of a song in my head. Or sometimes think of a cool bad-ass scene from a show or movie(Breaking Bad, Lost, and Walking Dead help a lot here).

My friend Darin, who I've mentioned, thinks I have social anxiety, and I can see that to an extent. I don't know much about it, but if I can't do something simple like ask if I can take my break...

Recently, a song I heard has been motivating me to write more. So, guess what I've been doing. I was going to make a whole blog about this because it ties in to my blog from a couple days ago about that movie.

The song is on the movie's soundtrack, and is sung by the female lead Annasophia Robb. It's called "Keep Your Mind Wide Open" and it ties in with the film/book about how you can do so many great things with your imagination. It makes me want to write and it gets stuck in my head easily. It could be because of me taking a fondness for her, I dunno. But I like it.

Usually Eminem or Linkin Park will get me motivated to do something. I should probably stop using that word, but oh well. Music in general helps. As does TV.

And there goes another useless Jesse Pinkman blog. ]]> Jesse Pinkman http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6444-Motivation http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6442-Really-Wish-I-WouldStop-Being-Scheduled-For-Saturdays Sat, 02 Mar 2013 22:43:58 GMT Honestly, today wasn't even that bad of a Saturday, but still. I hate them so much. The store is almost always really busy. Plus last night I got out at 10 and worked at 7:30 today. For me, that's not a lot of sleep. So if there are a lot of errors in this blog post, I apologize(A lot of the errors come from me typing too fast, or the keyboard sucking).

What was the point of this blog? Oh right, I really wish I would stop being scheduled for Saturdays. A lot of the time it's really busy. But I lucked out today because not only was it not that busy, but the weather wasn't too bad either. It was kind of cold but it didn't snow or anything. Win-win.

I'm going to go for now. I have another blog planned for later tonight/tomorrow. See how shit goes. Later. ]]> Jesse Pinkman http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6442-Really-Wish-I-WouldStop-Being-Scheduled-For-Saturdays http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6439-You-Know-What-a-Weird-Feeling-Is Thu, 28 Feb 2013 18:41:47 GMT ...When you sit down to watch a movie you haven't seen in a month, one that made you cry like a freaking baby, and then you watch it and you don't cry at all.

It's not even that sad of a movie or anything, and I feel I'd get made fun of for saying what it was, but life's too short to worry about mean people on a Simpsons forum making fun of you for crying at Bridge to Terabithia- fuck.

Yep, I don't know why, but that movie made me cry my eyes out. I like just saw it for the first time last month, and loved it. Really well-done and quite mature family film(I've never read the book, so....)

I think the main reason I cried so much is because of what happens to the main girl character, Leslie Burke, played by Annasophia Robb. I have a small crush on her. Don't really know why, I just think she's pretty. Others may disagree, I don't really care(And don't give me no "age" thing, in the movie she and the main guy lead play 5th graders but in real life she's older than meby a couple months).

But anyway, I was bored today, so I played it on YouTube, and I liked it as much as I previously did, I just didn't cry. It's odd watching something that not so long ago made you bawl, and then watching you're just... watching. No big emotion. Has this happened with anyone else in regards to any other movies, or TV shows, or whatever?

I don't know why I'm sharing this, why I cried at the movie or my small crush on someone who chances are, I may never meet(fuck you!!), but hey. I'm feeling open today. ]]> Jesse Pinkman http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6439-You-Know-What-a-Weird-Feeling-Is http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6436-what-should-i-do(please-read-and-respond) Mon, 25 Feb 2013 18:03:43 GMT I could make a thread about this I s'pose, but it has been a little while since my last blog. No one responds anymore, probably because I finally showed you all my Baby video, or maybe they're not interesting anymore. Whatever. I want to know what to do.

One of my friends at work turned 18 Friday, and as such, she wants a new job inside the store, away from the carts and such. She wants to either be a cashier, or to work in the Starbucks that we have inside the store. This makes me feel bad because she is one of my best friends and I enjoy working with her. Now she's gone. She probably has like another week or two before she's in.

And as if that wasn't enough(it never is), another one of my friends is going inside too. This friend, Josh, I've known since my second day at work when he trained me. Him and I can talk about anything and make each other laugh and he's given me rides home before and we've hung out after work before and the such. He got offered an inside job in Produce and he's going in sometime March.

That's two of my best friends gone, right around the same time. That fucking upsets me for a few reasons, like I said they're two of my best friends, and, with them gone, I'm highest on the seniority totem pole(meaning I've been there longer than everyone else; not counting like 4-5 middle-aged people who've been working for 15-20+ years). That also depresses me because when I first started last year I figured I'd be there a few months, maybe till the end of summer, then leave. Nope, never did.

I've seen numerous people who were cart-pushers first go inside; Cute Girl(who shall remain nameless), a girl that went to my school named Ashley, a guy I met named Bob who I became friends with.... and now these two. My best friends.

My question is, what do I do? Do I quit and get a new job? Do I get an indoor job? Factory job? Continue pushing carts? There are obviously several more cart-pushers but these two were my favorites to work with. I like working with most of the people I work with but others.... not so much.

Plus, there's this feeling I have when I'm pushing carts and I see one of the three I mentioned above being cashiers, I can't help but think they think they're better because they've moved on; indoors.

I don't even mind pushing carts much, but if my two best friends are leaving, what's the point. Yeah, you don't get a job and quit just because of your friends, but still.

I've been thinking about another part-time job. Iwork part-time, typically mornings/afternoons, occasionally nights but not too-ofen, so I could get a new job and work nights. That could suck as far as sleep is concerned though.

I could try and switch to being full-time.

I could get an indoor job, but I dunno what. Definitely NOT Cashier, and the only other option I know of is Stocking. Keep my options open I guess.

What do y'all suggest? ]]> Jesse Pinkman http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6436-what-should-i-do(please-read-and-respond) http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6409-Money-Problems-BE-GONE Sun, 17 Feb 2013 16:14:35 GMT I seriously don't know how I'm so fucked whenever it comes to money. I've been barely spending any of it this week, yet I'm down to like 25 bucks. I'm "supposed" to buy pop, milk and those nicotine pills for my sister(I use " " around the word supposed because I don't see why they can't). It makes me mad. Yeah, I work at a department/grocery store so I can buy stuff like that after I get off work, but... on a day off? Really? And those anti-smoking pills are like 30 right there, and I know that's what they're going to need most of all. So... that sucks. I'd help if I could.

The funny thing is I've seriously spent like no money this week, outside of Thursday. I gave them their 50, I gave my friend 20 that I said I've give him...

Friday I spent 10 to go see a movie with some friends.

Yesterday I spent about 17 bucks on a new thing of socks and a couple pop.

And I've gone out to eat like once. Throw in another ten.

So, I've spent a little over 100 and I'm already broke? How the hell did that happen? Unless I spent more money I'm forgetting.

It's going to be fun trying to tell them this when they pick me up later.

I was told that they'd subtract 30 from next week so I'd only have to pay 'em 20, but I was told that a few weeks ago and nothing happened; I still had to pay 50.

Is this even legal? THEY OWE ME MONEY. Back before they made me start paying, they'd borrow money occasionally for things and they said they'd pay me back. I don't remember now, but it was at least in the triple digits. Plus, they take change from me and my pop cans(you know... returnables). That's why I don't really feel all that bad about not being able to give them what they want today.

They owe me money and yet they make me pay. Is that even legal? Would I need a way to prove this for anyone to give a shit? I don't care if they occasionally need money, but.... THEY FUCKING OWED ME WHEN THEY STARTED MAKING ME PAY THEM. I should either not have to give them money for a month, or, I should get the money they owe me. Who even does that? Takes money, says they'll pay you back, instead makes you pay 'em every week? Sounds like a stupid Scumbag Steve meme. ]]> Jesse Pinkman http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6409-Money-Problems-BE-GONE http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6401-Side-Effects Mon, 11 Feb 2013 00:14:49 GMT I went to see this in theaters yesterday. It was pretty good I thought.

Some woman has been waiting like 4 years for her husband to get out of jail and all is right with the world, except the woman is depressed and tries to kill herself. She sees a psychiatrist who doesn't think anything of it; till she tries again. Then this psychiatrist starts meeting with the woman's previous psychiatrist, who thinks she should take a pill.

So she's put on the pill and things seem to be going good, except she startssleepwalking a lot. And as if that wasn't bad enough, she kills her husband in her sleepwalking phase. She goes to court and is sentenced to like a mental ward. Her new psychiatrist keeps visiting her and doesn't think anything adds up about the pill making her do this.

He looks into it, and at the end of the movie it is revealed that the murdering of the woman's husband was planned by the woman and her previous psychiatrist, a woman, who loved the woman. The woman eventually gets the previous psychiatrist arrested and the woman is sent back to the ward by the new one, who was pretty big of a dick throughout the movie.

That's more or less what I got out of it. Not an awful movie, not perfect. Out of the three I've seen this year, Django Unchained, A Haunted House, and now this, it's obviously better than Haunted House, but I dunno if i Liked it more than Django. Overall, probably a 3/5 or so. ]]> Jesse Pinkman http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6401-Side-Effects http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6398-Baby-Baby-Baby-OHH Sat, 09 Feb 2013 03:36:07 GMT Well, the day is here. The video of me singing Baby. Sopme behind-the-scenes type stuff beforehand:

-The video is "Bubbles singing Baby"- "Bubbles" was one of my nicknames throughout school. One of my names on here was also "S. Bubbles".

-I've only watched the video like once or twice, so I have no idea what the quality is. I honestly didn't know my friend was going to do anything; I knew he was filming me, but I thought at worst he'd put it on Facebook.

-My friend Manuel shot this while we were in Study Hall. It was just the two of us. It's just me singing the song while I was on my laptop. The teacher was gone and I was bored; I occasionally get annoying songs stuck in my head.

After this blog, whenever I blog it's going to be random shit. Enjoy folks.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5EbtUP_-ZMs&list=UL

PS- if you're lucky enough you'll see the video of me hugging a stuffed monkey also on my friend's profile. Enjoy your first look at me (assuming you don't know what I look like), and enjoy my wonderful singing voice. ]]> Jesse Pinkman http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6398-Baby-Baby-Baby-OHH http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6396-Sleep-And-Me-Aren-t-Getting-Along-Too-Well-Recently Tue, 05 Feb 2013 18:00:46 GMT The past couple days I haven't worked so I've been hanging out with my friend Darin- after he gets off work. I work at Meijer and he works at Burger King, and they're right by each other. The problem is, while I mostly work afternoons/nights to about 9-10 or anywhere inbetween, he works till 3 most nights. So when we start hanging out, it's already pretty late. And since he just got out of work, he wants to stay up late and not be lame and go to bed right away. Usually we just watch movies; the other night we watched Looper(he didn't like it much, oh well).

Because he stays up so late, he sleeps in, usually to the point where he doesn't get up until an hour or so before he goes into work. Yesterday, I was with him pretty much all day. We shoveled a little, watched TV, etc. He was complaining pretty much the whole time that he was tired.

Around 7 or so another of our friends, Drew, came over. I was really hungey and wanted food like nothing else because I hadn't eaten all day. Drew took me to Wendy's like the great guy that he is.

After that, I went to my house around 8:15ish. I went to take a nap. I figured if I could take a 2 hour nap or so, I'd be good. My alarm went off, and I was hungry, so I made some Ramen Noodles, ate them, then promptly went back to bed. "Oh God..." I thought. "I'm going to wake up at 2 or so and not be able to go back to sleep."

Wrong. I did wake up a couple times to have to use the bathroom, but I went back to sleep each and every time. Basically, what I'm getting at is, I went to bed at around 8:!5 last night, and fully woke up around 11 this morning. I was that sleep deprived.

I wouldn't change that for anything though. I like hanging out with Darin. But I didn't know I was that sleep deprived. I figure I'll go to work, get out, go to sleep right when I get home. I've only got a 6 hour day today; not too bad. ]]> Jesse Pinkman http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6396-Sleep-And-Me-Aren-t-Getting-Along-Too-Well-Recently http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6392-Yesterday-Was-Honestly-One-Of-The-Worst-Days-Of-My-Life Sun, 03 Feb 2013 22:28:55 GMT Remember when I said I'd post the video in this blog? I lied.

I was set to, but then yesterday happened, and I never made a blog.

Yesterday was all around shit-tacular.

I try to ride my bike in the snow to work and it takes forever. When I get there, there's me and one other person, the usual morning guy. We shovel for like 2-3 hours.

I don't really feel like talking only about work, so I'll put down the other two main reasons why.

-I had the bright idea to go to Burger King to see my friend, see if he wants to hang out after work. I left my bike at the store I work at so a friend could take me home. So, I get it, and ride my bike home in like 10 degree weather. The downside? I didn't bring my FUCKING GLOVES. I didn't know how cold it would be. So, I try putting my hands in my jacket sleeves, but that doesn't do shit. So by the time I get inside the house, both my hands are freezing cold as fuck from my own stupidity. I literally walked around the kitchen for like 15-20 minutes, saying things from "Fuck my life!" to "I hate my fucking life!" I'd never been in that much pain with my hands and hope never again. They're fine now. I just can't believe I was that stupid.

-I took a shower last night when no one was awake to kill time before my friend got here. Right when I go to turn the water off, the left handed water nozzle fucking FALLS OFF. At first I'm like "OK, I can fix this." It took TWO FUCKING HOURS to fix, and the only reason I eventually did was because my sister's husband woke up. You might be wondering why I didn't wake him up, but it was because I was trying to be self-efficient and do it myself.

This is a 2-parter because my friend got off work and came over, but it still wasn't fixed. It was my fault so I stayed helping. My friend waits in his car for over 20 minutes before saying "Fuck you" and leaves. Right when he texts me saying he is home, it is fixed. But, since I made him waste so much gas, I offer to pay him some gas money as compensation.

I just can't believe I was so stupid last night. What a fucking night.

Video WILL be posted. I just... god, last night fucking sucked. ]]> Jesse Pinkman http://www.nohomers.net/entry.php?6392-Yesterday-Was-Honestly-One-Of-The-Worst-Days-Of-My-Life