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  1. Why I'm Doing This (The Program)

    I've mentioned 'The Program' quite a bit recently, and to some, it may seem odd to do. Why would anyone want to stay in a mission pretty much all day and night for 6+ months, only being allowed to leave a certain number of hours each week or going places with the supervisors?

    Well, let's see. If I wasn't here, where would I be? Probably in Holland, getting stoned and/or drunk with the money I did have. I hate saying it, but that's who I was. A pothead drunk. Do I want to get out and ...
  2. Life's Going Good

    I'm really happy I stuck with the program. In about a month I should be able to advance to the next level, that is Servant. By the end of the year, if I'm as consistent as I have been, I may be in the final level, Disciple.

    I want to get out of the program as fast as I can, so I can start looking for work and start bettering my life. It's not always easy, going without smoking or drinking and I'd be lying if I said I didn't want to at times, but oh well. It's a process.
  3. Breaking Bad Season 5 Episode 14 "Ozymandias"

    "You're a damn artist! This is art Mr. White!"

    An initially skeptical Walt had once shrugged off Jesse's nave notion of quality meth manufacture as being an art form, but as the chemistry of Walt's choices began to push him farther down this darkened path, he began to get swept up in the notion of his own blue majesty which grew to be an extension of himself. The egotistical man with the black sunglasses and pork pie hat. Something of which always felt like an ...
  4. Not Leaving

    I'm not going to leave the program. I'm not ready. Whether or not this is right for me or not, this has helped me stay away from drugs and alcohol. I'm liking the people and for the first time in a while it really feels like people actually care about me.

    Plus, even if it isn't much, 5 bucks a week is pocket money, which can add up. Plus, next level is 10 a week and next is 15. Plus, they don't have to pay us weekly anyway, it's just a nice incentive.

    The main reason ...
  5. Thinking About Quitting The Program

    my whole life has almost always been about making others happy. i did things throughout childhood and my teen years to please those around me, and i've never really thought about what I want. this program is a prime example of this.

    i joined the program for a couple reasons: one, that it would keep me away from weed and alcohol, and two, so i could get help finding a job. but mostly it's just work and homework on top of that. i spend almost all my days in the kitchen or doing homework ...