...OK, not really.
BUT... I am leaving this site.
First off, hello nohomers' members. I am awake. I am at peace. Lemme explain what has happened.
As you all know, I live at a shelter now. Everyday we have chapel 2-3 times. Talking about Jesus and God. Touchy subjects for me, because as a kid I was pretty religious, but as I grew older, I didn't really know what to believe or think.
Then, at chapel, I listened to people talk about how
Well, this is my official goodbye. Today I am officially moved in to a homeless shelter. I really wish my life didn't resort to this, but... it has.
The upside to this is I am more than motivated to get my shit together; bye-bye pot. Hello.... life. I can't say I'm never going to smoke weed again, but I can promise that it won't be for a while; the shelter drops you every few days. I'd care more, you know, if I had money to spend, a secure job, my own place... I'll get all of those
To say I have no idea what's going on anymore would be the biggest understatement I have ever said. Nothing in life makes sense anymore. Literally, not one damn thing.
The past few days Darin and Drew keep asking me "If I'm ready", and I hate them when they do it. They're talking about the day when Darin's mom is going to kick me out of the house, and they're going to take me to the mission.
I figured if I got a job soon enough I'd be good and could continue
Well, yesterday was it. We all cracked. Our friend Drew bought us GOLD PAPERS and we had to use 'em. We just... we had to.
It was a pretty good experience; taking 3-4 days off actually did get me a little higher than usual. I was at the "laughing hysterically for no reason" stage. And to think we're going to try to go A MONTH. I'm going to... oh my god. It's going to be good.
I feel kind of bad now though because now it's going to take a little longer to
We're going on day 3 now of no smoking. Honestly, I'm surprised we've lasted this far... everyday one of us makes comments about wanting to smoke so badly. You can guess who that is.
On the plus side, I'm beginning to exercise a lot more. Like yesterday, I spent almost all my time outside walking and/or running. Still looking for a job... the search is very difficult. All the GOOD jobs I'd want I'd need to pass a drug test, and every other job I would want I don't have a damned cell